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My weight has always been an issue. I've always been "chunky" in some way. I've always been aware of this-- mostly because of the comments of others. No one seemed to mind letting me know in some fashion that I was too heavy.
Even as a child, when I had P.E. everyday at school and played sports outside of P.E. I didn't lose the flab. When I was playing basketball and running track, my knees started hurting. "Well, maybe if you drop a few pounds, there won't be so much pressure and strain on your joints." When I got to middle school, the teasing really began. I wouldn't quite say that I had an eating disorder, but that was the time I first tried to cut my food intake by about half. Fortunately, it was also a big growth spurt for me, so I grew almost two inches and lost about 15 pounds in the course of about 4 months. I was still chunkier than all of my friends, but could just barely fit into all of the cute fashions and stuff the teen stores sold. I was able to stay at that size almost all the way through college.
After college, I put on between 15-20 pounds in the first year. Then, I started grad school while working full time. I would work 7:30-3:30 and go to class from 4-7 most days of the week. Because of this, dinner fell by the wayside. Surprisingly enough, that took off 20+ pounds, and I got down to my smallest ever. Like, I almost looked like an appropriately sized 23 year old. Of course, I could not keep those habits up when I was no longer in school. So, I went back up a size or two, about 10 pounds. That was ok. Not great, but manageable. Up until about a year ago, when we started TTC, I bounced up and down about 10 pounds. Since last April, I've gained about 20 pounds. Well, really it happened a lot faster, and I've been there for a while.
I'm really trying to work at losing some pounds now. We bought an elliptical machine to help, and I can't wait until it arrives on Monday. Recent circumstances have greatly diminished my appetite. I haven't been weighing myself, because it is too depressing. I went to buy a few clothing items yesterday, and after trying on a pile of clothes, getting frustrated that they weren't fitting right I realized that I need to go down a size! I came home, stepped on the scale, and found that I had lost 8 pounds! I do know that this is totally circumstancial, and that my appetite will come back eventually. I just hope the major increase in exercise I'm planning helps keep it going.
Even as a child, when I had P.E. everyday at school and played sports outside of P.E. I didn't lose the flab. When I was playing basketball and running track, my knees started hurting. "Well, maybe if you drop a few pounds, there won't be so much pressure and strain on your joints." When I got to middle school, the teasing really began. I wouldn't quite say that I had an eating disorder, but that was the time I first tried to cut my food intake by about half. Fortunately, it was also a big growth spurt for me, so I grew almost two inches and lost about 15 pounds in the course of about 4 months. I was still chunkier than all of my friends, but could just barely fit into all of the cute fashions and stuff the teen stores sold. I was able to stay at that size almost all the way through college.
After college, I put on between 15-20 pounds in the first year. Then, I started grad school while working full time. I would work 7:30-3:30 and go to class from 4-7 most days of the week. Because of this, dinner fell by the wayside. Surprisingly enough, that took off 20+ pounds, and I got down to my smallest ever. Like, I almost looked like an appropriately sized 23 year old. Of course, I could not keep those habits up when I was no longer in school. So, I went back up a size or two, about 10 pounds. That was ok. Not great, but manageable. Up until about a year ago, when we started TTC, I bounced up and down about 10 pounds. Since last April, I've gained about 20 pounds. Well, really it happened a lot faster, and I've been there for a while.
I'm really trying to work at losing some pounds now. We bought an elliptical machine to help, and I can't wait until it arrives on Monday. Recent circumstances have greatly diminished my appetite. I haven't been weighing myself, because it is too depressing. I went to buy a few clothing items yesterday, and after trying on a pile of clothes, getting frustrated that they weren't fitting right I realized that I need to go down a size! I came home, stepped on the scale, and found that I had lost 8 pounds! I do know that this is totally circumstancial, and that my appetite will come back eventually. I just hope the major increase in exercise I'm planning helps keep it going.
That's fantastic, Emmy! I'm also trying to lose some weight. But 8 pounds and losing a clothing size are wonderful! Keep up the good work!
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