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I'm still not caught up on what I needed to do, and will be spending the whole day working today, but that is okay.  It's my own fault.  Despite the layoff, this has been a pretty good week.   I spend some quality time with KD on Friday, and he is in!!  He thought he had told us already.  The only thing he is struggling with right now is if he wants to know the outcome.  Also, I got a call from MIL on the day I got my notice, saying that she knows that I am independent and want to do this on our own, but she wants to help us financially with the IVF.  I'm assuming that we would be paying  them back, but she didn't go into the specifics.  She just said that she wanted to make our dreams come true, and didn't want my layoff to stop that.   I have an orientation scheduled for next week in the office, and will call on CD1 to get the hsg scheduled.  It amazes me how much is coming together for this.   I had a dream last night that I...

It's hard to know where to start.  There is a lot going on in my head and it is hard to organize, so please forgive the random thoughts. I've totally been procrastinating doing the things I need to do.  That will really come and bite me in the ass later in the week.  A big part of me is thinking of taking Friday off to catch up, but I really don't want to take any more days. Even though it probably doesn't come across often, mostly because I feel like I am always complaining, I do feel fortunate for many things in my life-- my husband and mother, especially.  They are there for me always, and take care of me like no one else could.  I am so lucky to have them in my life.  I've also made a couple of friends recently, too.  We've been going out and doing things weekly, which I think has helped my sanity, as well as giving B some space for himself.  I am also SO grateful to have all of you for support.  I don't know what I'd do without you. ...

The money issue. I've talked a little bit about money before, and I hate it. I hate what it does to people . I got my job back, so that future is brighter. I miss my brother SO much every day and wish I could call and talk to him. Every time I'm at my mom's house, I expect him to come bounding down the stairs and start pounding away on the piano. I think about all he wanted, but never got to accomplish. One of the big things that he wanted was to get his money from my dad's life insurance. He had asked for it, and was supposed to get it, but then he died. Now, apparently it is mine. My uncle C, the nice one, told me on May 9th that he should have money for me in a week or so. I figured that meant two, but it has clearly been 6 weeks since he said that. I don't want to seem greedy, but I want to spend it as my brother would want me to. We have a long list of money to spend (mostly wants, not needs). Expenses: Windows for the house -$ 13,000 (want/need-r...