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I've now officially graduated from the RE!  I have an appointment at the end of next week with a regular ob/gyn from here on out. I also have to make an appointment with a genetic person, who I guess is the one who does the NT scan or whatever. The heart rate was 144 bpm, which seems low to me, but the dr. wasn't concerned.  The CRL is 26.4mm, which their machine says is 9w5d, but it didn't look like he clicked all the way down to the bottom of the butt.  It is definitely looking more like a baby now!  We even saw it move/twitch a little bit.  The doctor thinks everything looks great.   Here are the pics from today. See what I mean about there being another mm or two below the bottom +? and the glorious heartbeat! Nausea and tiredness are definitely in full force.  I entered vomitville yesterday and today is not looking so great.  Fortunately, I don't have anything going on today, so I can just relax and get some sleep. I always thought I would wa...

First, I want to thank all of you who constantly reassure me and help me through my neuroses.  It's good to know that others have experienced the same things and everything has turned out okay. The new thing driving me crazy is insomnia!  It has been taking me longer to fall asleep.  Then, I'll wake up in the middle of the night and have to pee.  After that, I can't get back to sleep.  At all.  I try not to look at the clock, because that usually just causes me more anxiety knowing how much longer I have to sleep. The scan went well today!  I saw a different doctor than normal, but I really liked him.  We got to hear the heartbeat, which was 180 bpm.  The baby is still measuring a day ahead and we could see the spine, arms, and legs.  The picture isn't that clear, but you can still sort of see the gummy bear look.  The heart was strong, and we could see the umbilical cord pulsing too.  I have another appointment in 10 days, and...

I'm totally going to become  have already become a boring pregnancy blogger.  I don't really have anything interesting to say. The anxiety is still really there.  My symptoms have lightened up a bit in the last few days, which makes me really nervous.  I'm only 8w2d- I shouldn't be coming out 1st trimester symptoms yet.  But, I've been hungry and not as tired.  Even my acne is clearing up.  I'm so nervous for the scan on Monday.  B can't go because he has a meeting at work, but my mom is going to go with me. I ended up ordering a doppler.  It came the other day.  I haven't tried it yet, because I think it is too early and I want to wait at least until I see that testiclese/clitiva is still alive. In unpregnancy related freak-outs, something scared the crap out of me this morning.  I'm just relaxing on the couch, and I hear something banging around/scratching from somewhere in the house.  My house is strange, in that part of it ...

I finally had my ultrasound!  We saw one beating heart.  They didn't measure or tell us the heart rate, but we saw it flashing away.  It looked like, according to the doctor, that both had implanted but one baby stopped developing about 2 weeks ago. The doctor has my due date as 3-16-11, which is one day earlier than I had it (making me 7w1d today) and the CRL measured 7w2d!  Here is a picture of my little blob. I go back on August 9th for another scan, then once more after that.  If all looks good at that point, I'll be released to an OB.  I am a bit disappointed that it isn't twins, but thrilled to have one healthy (so far) baby!

I'm pretty sure I've mentioned my anxiety a few times on this blog.  It is to the point where I used to be on meds and have had panic attacks and such, but it's been better in the last two years or so.  There have been no meds in me, on a regular basis, for awhile. IVF and the  uncertainty of pregnancy has not helped!  I'm constantly worrying that the baby(ies) have died.  I don't want to make any plans for Thursday, in case there is bad news.  The reality of it is, though, that I would like things to do!  At the end of last week, my nausea really picked up.  It has seemed to wane a bit, which of course, gives me anxiety!  I also feel like I don't have to pee as frequently/urgently, and I am not sleeping as much. Today is 6w4d, and I hope those little ones are still growing and thriving.  It still seems like forever until Thursday's ultrasound.  I'm really glad I scheduled it for early in the morning, otherwise I think I'd go nuts. ...

I feel pretty boring these days!  I'm just plugging along, waiting for my ultrasound.  It did get moved to the 29th, when I'll be 7 weeks.  Time feels like it is moving so slowly!! Yesterday was my last PIO shot!  I am now on endometrin instead.  I am so happy to give my hips a break.  So far, the suppositories are okay.  They feel a little leaky, but it doesn't seem like anything has really come out onto my liner or anything.   Apparently, that graph that I mentioned in my last post doesn't exist anymore.  Luckily for me, Jenni found one and put my data in.  Thanks, Jenni !!  Here's my graph!

I know I've complained about the nurse I work with most of the time before.  Since then, she went on vacation and came back and was better the last time I saw her.  Until this afternoon.  I've gotten most of my calls with test results between noon and 3pm.  I decided to call them today at 4:15, when I hadn't heard.  I was getting really anxious that the reason I hadn't heard was because the Dr. wanted to call me personally to give me bad news.  Apparently, they were just behind and the nurse took my call.   I've come to the conclusion that she just isn't that bright.  One of the pharmacies that I use to get my meds changed to Walgreens specialty pharmacy and she didn't believe me when I told her that.  She insisted that I was wrong, despite the fact that I've spent a pantload of money there and have ordered refills from them.  Then, she went to schedule my ultrasound.  She said it should be 5 weeks after the egg retrieval.  Th...

The beta came in at 761, which isn't quite doubling in 48 hours.  It is something like 49.8 hours.  They want me to come back on Wednesday for a 3rd.  I know that this isn't too bad, but it feels bad to me.  I was really hoping to have over shot their expectations. In other news, a friend asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding in March, on the other side of the US.  I told her to let me know more specifically when the wedding would be, when she knows.

Today is 4w2d.  Hardly anything in terms of a pregnancy, but farther than I've ever been before.  There has not been too much in terms of symptoms.  My stomach is a little off every once in a while- usually after I eat or drink something.  I'm not getting very many cramps anymore, though they were short lasting when they came.  The boobs are sore and have grown a little.  I've been pretty tired too.  Last night I slept for more than 9 hours, which is rare for me.  I even had a nap yesterday and 4 hours after waking up this morning, I'm ready for another nap! B and I are both cautiously happy, but know that we still have a long way to go to bring home a baby/babies.  The next step is beta #2 on Monday, then ultra sound on July 29th or 30th.  We really hope it's twins, but of course we'd just be thrilled by a real live baby.  We're already saying 'they' when referring to what's happening in there.  We haven't really celebrated. ...

My beta came in at 200!  They said that they like to see it over 100, so I figure 200 is good considering that its 1-3 days earlier than they usually do it.  I'll go in on Monday for a repeat test.

Ok, this will be the last pee stick picture I post, I promise.  It feels good to feed my addiction!  I called the doctor and get to go in for a beta tomorrow.  I was hoping it would be today, but tomorrow is certainly better than Monday. Here is today's glory: Sorry if I'm boring you with my pee stick obsession.  It's just so strange to see positives!  I can't get over it!

I am a POAS addict.  I admit it.  I have an addiction.  This morning, I started trying to satisfy my addiction with another internet cheapy hpt.  The test line was about the same as yesterdays first IC test line, actually now that I really compared the two, it is a smidgen darker.  So, I took out another IC, because yesterday the second one was darker than the first.  The second one had a TON of dye in it and the whole thing turned pink!  Then the test line started to appear.  There is still a bunch of dye in the background (2 hours later).  So, to finish off my addiction, I took out a FRER.  I thought that perhaps a 'real' test might give me some clues.  It's still pretty light, but I can see the line on the FRER!  I have an expired digital that I may try tomorrow.  I know it takes a lot more hcg to make the digital go, but if I'm doubling appropriately, I think it should work.  And if it doesn't, I can blame it on l...