starting over, again

Well, moving on, again. After getting a faint positive on Sunday, visible to others as well, not just me, AF showed with a bang this morning. There was definitely pink on the test line. I knew not to get my hopes up, but still sort of did anyway, as it is the closest I've ever gotten to a real positive. So frustrating!!

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