I've been hit by overwhelming sadness. My BFNs have destroyed me more than I thought possible. The past seven days have been incredibly emotional and life changing in ways that have nothing to do with making babies. We are now unemployed, moving, and filled with uncertainty in nearly every aspect of our lives. As horrible of timing as pregnancy would have been with all that the past week has brought us, it was my glimmer of hope. My hope that something good might actually happen. The part about trying again has also been taken from us. We can't very well put money into fertility treatments when we have no more income. I think that is where it stings the most. If I knew that we could just try again in a month or two, I think I would be handling this better. We also got news, less than two weeks ago, that our donor is most likely done helping us. September would have been the last month for him to help, but now I guess it's done. We do have about 10 mil. sperm on...
I'm sorry, Emmy :( That is *so* hard. But it's so normal to feel this way - I'm finding it impossible to be happy for any pg woman ~at all~ these days.
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This road sucks.
I hate baby showers.
ReplyDeleteI'm not TTC anymore, but I constantly have nightmares about people telling me they are PG... it still hurts :(
Oh, I'm sorry! When I was at my old job we only had 9 women that worked there. At one point we had 3 of the 9 pregnant along with 4 wives of co-workers. It was so difficult to deal with.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'll take pregnancy whenever you can get it (hopefully sooner than later) and the sub will just have to deal!
Seriously. That sucks. I'm so sorry.
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