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It's been quite a tumultuous week, filled with some good news, some bad, and some frustrating.  Last week was really work intensive- mostly not related to my classroom teaching, and all union business.  I probably worked an extra 10-12 hours last week, just on union junk.  Most of the time I really enjoy my position in the local union, but last week I had to deal with a lot of dumb people mad at me, even though I'm just the messenger.  I did get quite a few compliments for the good and thorough job that I did.  The good part of this, is that it looks like my pink slip will be rescinded.  I'll know in a week or so. Today, I got really frustrated with my RE's office.  I've only met with the RE once, for an hour, for my initial consultation.  Everything else I've done for this has been through an outside lab or with the nurses.  My frustration comes in that either people aren't writing down what we talk about, or they are not looking in my chart...

Things are going better with DH and me.  Thanks for all of your advice-- I appreciate it.  B had already talked to his doctor about lowering his med dose because he feels really tired a lot.  The Dr. suggested alternating between the higher and lower dose each day.  It seems to be working a bit better and making him feel/seem more normal. We had a good talk about what we expect of each other.  What was interesting is that B was curious about something in me that I had assumed was prior/common knowledge about our relationship.  I sort of threw something back in his face, but in a "I already know not to expect this from you" sort of way.  I think that helped him make the connection to what he was feeling and what I am. Things have been better.  I hope they continue on that way.  We've got a lot going on in the next month or two, and I just started the (hopefully) the last cycle I'll have for a year without taking some sort of meds.  After ...

I had a great few days on a trip with a few of my friends.  We had lots of fun.  I was excited to come home and spend some time with B, though.   Apparently, him, not so much.  Since I got home, he's pretty much ignored me.  He claims nothing is wrong, of course.  We often run into the problem that we don't know what to do together.  He's asked me several times what I want to do, I've responded, "I don't know, what do you want to do?"  He has mostly just re-asked me the question.   Finally, he says, "You don't want to do any of the things that I want to do." So, I asked what those things are.  He responded, "Play video games, have se.x,..."  I called bullshit on the se.x part, because he hasn't come anywhere near me since I've gotten home.  He didn't even hug or kiss me goodnight last night, after I worked to set up a romantic evening which ended with us in bed (not doing it).  Maybe he does want to have se.x, but ap...

I'm a bad blogger.   But, there really isn't much going on, which I guess is a good thing.  I'm working on getting my IVF meds for free/discounted.   It's spring break for me, which is really nice. I've been really productive already.  I've done lots of gardening, and figured out my taxes.  <This year is extra difficult with my brother dying.> We hosted Easter brunch yesterday, which went really well.  All of my food came out great.  I went into work today on my break to get ready for when the kids come back and got a lot done.  A few of us went in and we worked together/for each other which was really helpful.  I'm freaking out more and more about the upcoming 'events' in June.  I'm terrified of failure, almost to the point of not wanting to try.  I know I'll hate myself if I don't try, but there really is something to the, "If you don't try, you can't fail" thoughts.  I also know that if I don't try, I ca...