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It was a great trip to Hawaii. Amazing. Just what I needed. We did a ton of great things, which I am debating posting all about, but I did get a ton of great pictures. Maybe next week for show and tell. This was truly a vacation-- I really was distracted from my problems. It was amazing. I even thought of that at one point. I hadn't really cried since we got there (a little teary-eyed once or twice) and it was a few days in. That is the longest I had gone in over 4 months. I was visiting places I had only been with my family, as a child, and recounting memories of swimming in that waterfall with my parents and brother. And going to this store, and other adventures with my brother the last time I really spend time on Maui. I think the fondness and tenderness of my memories, and their ability to come flooding back, made me feel glad. I have a lot of memories tied to that island. I visited there twice with my mom, dad, and brother when I was in the 9-11 year old range. ...

Well, no decision about which doctor to see, but a step taken. I had CD 3 blood work drawn today. I am going to go ahead with all of the blood work this cycle, to make sure my ovaries are functional appropriately. I've thought about it a lot, and I think I would like to have all of the pre-IVF diagnostic testing, but prefer doctor #2's cycle strategy better. Doctor #2's statistics are just too difficult to ignore- his 2006 live birth rate was twice #1's, and every other year it is a decent percent better too. I know stats aren't everything, or really anything, but I feel like I live my life by them! I can't decide whether or not to take my computer with me on my trip. We leave for Maui tomorrow evening! There are only a few more things I need to get to get us all together. Crap, I need to move the laundry! I don't have a phone that can email, so if I don't take my computer, you won't be hearing from me until next Thursday! This is a much nee...

I had a lot of fun this week!! On Monday, we went to see Incubus at the Hollywood Bowl . It was a fantastic show. If I could go again tomorrow, I would in a heart beat! On Tuesday, one of my good friends flew into town, so I picked her up at the airport and we hung out and ended up seeing Harry Potter that night! There is a theater not to far where you can reserve your specific seat ahead of time, so we did that and didn't have to wait in line!! Then we hit up some outlet stores on Wednesday before meeting up with her mom later. That night, I went to play Bunco with some coworkers. Lots of excitement! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This weekend, we are headed to a two day wine festival! It should be a fantastic adventure filled with laughs and alcohol. I just hope not to get too drunk! We shall see. We are leaving town in four hours, so I'd better get going! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ This week, I had initial consultations with two different REs. They were actually more differen...

So, we had the appointment today. The one with the expensive doctor. No genetic issues. No chromosomal abnormalities. No reason for NOA . The choices ahead of us: 1.) Repair large vericocele on left and medium on right, wait 6 months- a year, repeat s/a (doctor says this has between a 30-50% chance of working to get sperm in the eja.culate) 2.) Go with IVF off the bat and do a mTESE-like procedure the day before the egg retrieval and hope for sperm. (doctor says 75-80% chance of finding sperm to use with icsi) Downside to this is that one in four to one in five chance of nothing. Doctor suggests donor sperm as a backup. I'm ok with that, B is not. 3.) Adopt- again, I am okay with this, B is not 4.) Live child free-- B is okay with this, I am not. In other news, I get Friday and Monday off this weekend. B and I are going to his parents house Friday morning and are being picked up and driven to wineries for 5 hours and dropped back off. Then we are staying the night at h...

So, I've been thinking about planning a vacation for DH and me. We have enough miles for two tickets to Hawaii and there are seats available for my spring break in April. Do we spend~ $2,000 for hotel/condo, car, and food? Or, should we be saving money like crazy for IVF? It's going to cost us quite a bit to get sperm out of DH, assuming he has any, on top of icsi. I'm torn between wanting to take a nice vacation, probably for the last time in a long time if we are moving forward with this ivf stuff, and trying to save every penny. Advice?