The history

So, we decided a while ago that we wanted to expand our little family. I mean, we have this big house (4 bedrooms) just for the two of us! So, I stopped BCP in February so we could TTC. So, we started trying. And here we are now, many months later with nothing to show for it! I am getting really frustrated! I know that we haven't been trying that long, in the scheme of things, but I never thought thought it would take this long. It makes me so sad. Why do we have the inability to get pregnant?

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