On Saturday, I really felt pregnant. I was so sure that I was. Yesterday, I didn't feel it at all and was so sure that I'm not. The clinic told me to test on the 26th, but I knew there is no way I could hold out till Thursday to test. With my IVF cycle, I got my first BFP at 11 dpo. It was light, but it was there. Today, my test was clearly negative. I can see where the second line should be, but there is not even a hint of color. I know that 11 dpo is early, and all of that, but I think I am out for this cycle. I'll take the progesterone for another few days, but all signs point to this cycle as a bust. I'm taking this a lot harder than I thought I would. A lot has changed/happened in the last 2 weeks, and I don't know if/when we'll be able to try again. And as much as everything that has hit the fan in the last week makes the timing extraordinarily bad, it would have been a nice beacon of hope. I'll keep testing until AF shows (which sho...
I'm sorry, Emmy :( That is *so* hard. But it's so normal to feel this way - I'm finding it impossible to be happy for any pg woman ~at all~ these days.
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This road sucks.
I hate baby showers.
ReplyDeleteI'm not TTC anymore, but I constantly have nightmares about people telling me they are PG... it still hurts :(
Oh, I'm sorry! When I was at my old job we only had 9 women that worked there. At one point we had 3 of the 9 pregnant along with 4 wives of co-workers. It was so difficult to deal with.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you'll take pregnancy whenever you can get it (hopefully sooner than later) and the sub will just have to deal!
Seriously. That sucks. I'm so sorry.
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