I've been hit by overwhelming sadness. My BFNs have destroyed me more than I thought possible. The past seven days have been incredibly emotional and life changing in ways that have nothing to do with making babies. We are now unemployed, moving, and filled with uncertainty in nearly every aspect of our lives. As horrible of timing as pregnancy would have been with all that the past week has brought us, it was my glimmer of hope. My hope that something good might actually happen. The part about trying again has also been taken from us. We can't very well put money into fertility treatments when we have no more income. I think that is where it stings the most. If I knew that we could just try again in a month or two, I think I would be handling this better. We also got news, less than two weeks ago, that our donor is most likely done helping us. September would have been the last month for him to help, but now I guess it's done. We do have about 10 mil. sperm on...
Hooray for no more pill popping
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We went through infertility, and after a while it was hard to go back to normal, but it sure felt good. :-)
ReplyDeleteI'm here via ICLW, a day early. :-)
I just changed from a prescription prenatal to one that I could get from a store - strangely, it seemed like a hard decision to make but upon reading the bottle, it wasn't worth spending the money on the prescription!
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I can definitely relate to the desire to just be -- apart from TTC. We're in the midst of a 2WW wait now, but we've already decided that should this not work, we're going to take a breather. Enjoy being regular!
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I love them. They make my hair grow FAST LOL But yes, not having to remember would be nice :)
ReplyDeleteHAHa - I rebelled and stopped taking my prenatals when we got our azoo diagnosis too. It was like my secret way of 'getting back' at the world.
ReplyDeleteand sometime when I am really angry or in a bad mood I won't brush my teeth before going to bed.
We just might be big dorks!