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No sperm.  RE gave us a 10% chance of finding one 'twitching' in the tissue sample in the morning.  Lots of tears.  This almost feels like the initial diagnosis all over again.

I thought I was prepared to handle this, but apparently not.  Known donor it is.

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  1. KellyJune 23, 2010 at 5:23 PM

    Emmy, I'm so sorry. (((HUGS)))

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  2. My Bumpy JourneyJune 23, 2010 at 5:25 PM

    Oh Emmy- I am so very sorry. {{HUGS}} I am tearing up for you. I don't think there is anything to prepare you for it.
    {{HUGS}}

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  3. RuthJune 23, 2010 at 5:38 PM

    :( I'm so sorry (((HUGS))))

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  4. TiffanyJune 23, 2010 at 5:48 PM

    My heart breaks for you. I don't think it's possible to be prepared for news like this, even when you know it's a possibility.

    It's so unfair.

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  5. RachJune 23, 2010 at 6:16 PM

    I'm so sorry. Hoping they find at least a couple in the morning. I would have been upset as well, even though we had known.

    I asked our embryologist what they need in TESE sperm (like normally they check motility, morph, etc.). He seriously said it's tail just needs to twitch. They don't even need to be moving. That's really all it takes to do ICSI.

    Praying for you. Good luck with the ER.

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  6. EllaJune 23, 2010 at 7:00 PM

    Oh Emmy, I'm so SO sorry. Of course you are mourning this again, it's impossible to be ready for this news even if you know it's a possibility. I'm so sorry :(

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  7. NoelleJune 23, 2010 at 7:29 PM

    Oh Emmy, I am so so sorry.

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  8. MichelleJune 23, 2010 at 7:29 PM

    I am so sorry. I know how terrible this feels. I feel your sadness and pain. We had (1) twitching in the sample they didn't freeze.
    This sucks. Big hugs to you and dh.

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  9. someday-soonJune 23, 2010 at 7:54 PM

    UGH! I'm so sorry {{{HUGS}}}

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  10. JenniJune 23, 2010 at 8:34 PM

    I'm so sorry. Knowing it's a possibility means that you hope it will work out the way you want, and losing that hope is terrible. I wish I could help, but know I'm thinking of you. {{HUGS}}

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  11. mommyinwaitingJune 23, 2010 at 10:47 PM

    Oh Emmy, I am so very sorry. I had such hope for you guys. There is nothing I can say to ease the pain, but know that you and hubby are in my thoughts. How is hubby coping?

    Wishing you lots of luck for ER.

    Big (((HUGS)))

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  12. MugsyJune 23, 2010 at 11:44 PM

    Was so hoping for a different result for you. HUGS.

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  13. CortneyJune 23, 2010 at 11:44 PM

    Oh Emmy, I am so sorry! Thinking of you and DH! (((HUGS)))

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  14. babyattheendJune 24, 2010 at 5:39 AM

    Hugs, Emmy. I'm so sorry they didn't find any... there isn't anything that can honestly prepare you for that result. Sending you lots of warmth for the retrieval today. If you ever need to talk about anything, especially regarding known donor stuff, please don't hesitate to email me (babyattheend at gmail com).

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  15. MicheleJune 24, 2010 at 5:55 AM

    ((hugs))

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  16. RubyJune 24, 2010 at 8:40 AM

    I'm so sorry Emmy. Hugs

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  17. Somewhat OrdinaryJune 24, 2010 at 8:50 AM

    Oh, I'm so sorry! I know that the shock is so hard, but I am a testament that it will all be ok.

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  18. JennJune 24, 2010 at 12:42 PM

    Sorry about your news and hope the retrieval went well. Thank you for stopping by my blog. Haven't been able to find a replacement job yet but when I do, I will let you know ;)

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  19. IllanareJune 24, 2010 at 3:06 PM

    I am so sorry, Emmy. You are in my thoughts.

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