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It took me 3 tries to find an RE that I was happy with.  Hopefully the search for OB won't take as long.  However, the first one is out and appointment number two is on the books for a few weeks from now.  I'm thinking about scheduling a 3rd appointment now, just to be safe. OB #1 was literally over 75 years old and couldn't hear what I was saying more than half the time.  He didn't know how to date the pregnancy based on the egg retrieval, so it was a good thing I knew when to say my LMP was so that it was dated right, and asked when the embryos were implanted.  I told him that REs haven't found a way to implant embryos into the uterine wall, but two were transferred on 6/29.  The office staff was rude and disorganized, and the lady answering phones complained and talked about each call out loud to herself or the waiting room or whoever.  I pretty much left there in tears. I called OB #2 and got the soonest appointment I could make.  They use a d...

I've been having lots more vivid dreams. The strangest ones have involved people who have passed away-- my dad, my brother, grandparents, and my friend.  My friend, who died of liver cancer two years ago, knew she was dying in my dream and wanted one last outing with me.  They've all been so real. I also had one a few nights ago where we found out that the baby was a boy.  In this same dream, I also had already had the baby, and he was like 6 months old.  It was all very strange!  I'm so curious and anxious to find out what the gender is.  I'll have the NT scan at 13 weeks- maybe they'll be able to tell then!  It seems so long to wait until mid October or so to find out! We've slowly started telling people.  A few close friends know now and are very excited for us.  I'm hoping to wait until Sept. 20th to announce it to work, although like 6 people at work already know!  Others have been eying my belly, so I'm hoping to be able to hold ou...

As crappy as I feel sometimes, I really have no complaints about this pregnancy.  Yes, it is/can be a bit annoying to feel like throwing up all the time, alternating between insomnia and sleeping all the time, and being backed up, but I'm happy to have it.  With all that it took to get pregnant, I would gladly feel like this, or worse, for the next 7 months if it means I get to bring home a baby at the end.  When I talk about my symptoms, I'm not complaining (or at least not trying to) but just reporting.  I'm so grateful to be this far, and hope that everything continues to go well. The bump is growing.  Regular clothes are getting more and more difficult to fit into, even my 'fat' clothes.  The fat clothes are funny because they are tight around the waist, but huge in the hips, butt, and thighs!  I think I need to dig through my closet this week, figure out what is too small and store it under the bed, and find some things I can fit into now.  I...

I've now officially graduated from the RE!  I have an appointment at the end of next week with a regular ob/gyn from here on out. I also have to make an appointment with a genetic person, who I guess is the one who does the NT scan or whatever. The heart rate was 144 bpm, which seems low to me, but the dr. wasn't concerned.  The CRL is 26.4mm, which their machine says is 9w5d, but it didn't look like he clicked all the way down to the bottom of the butt.  It is definitely looking more like a baby now!  We even saw it move/twitch a little bit.  The doctor thinks everything looks great.   Here are the pics from today. See what I mean about there being another mm or two below the bottom +? and the glorious heartbeat! Nausea and tiredness are definitely in full force.  I entered vomitville yesterday and today is not looking so great.  Fortunately, I don't have anything going on today, so I can just relax and get some sleep. I always thought I would wa...

I am so exhausted.  I didn't get a nap today.  In addition to that, I spent over 4 hours in my classroom working today.  I don't know how I am going to manage it once the kids come!  After that, I went to two stores for groceries.  So tired. My nausea is back with a vengeance.  Today is probably the worst it's been.  I still haven't blown chunks, but I really thought I was going to earlier and sort of right now.   I can't wait to see the baby again on Thursday!  I hope it is still doing well.  

First, I want to thank all of you who constantly reassure me and help me through my neuroses.  It's good to know that others have experienced the same things and everything has turned out okay. The new thing driving me crazy is insomnia!  It has been taking me longer to fall asleep.  Then, I'll wake up in the middle of the night and have to pee.  After that, I can't get back to sleep.  At all.  I try not to look at the clock, because that usually just causes me more anxiety knowing how much longer I have to sleep. The scan went well today!  I saw a different doctor than normal, but I really liked him.  We got to hear the heartbeat, which was 180 bpm.  The baby is still measuring a day ahead and we could see the spine, arms, and legs.  The picture isn't that clear, but you can still sort of see the gummy bear look.  The heart was strong, and we could see the umbilical cord pulsing too.  I have another appointment in 10 days, and...

I'm totally going to become  have already become a boring pregnancy blogger.  I don't really have anything interesting to say. The anxiety is still really there.  My symptoms have lightened up a bit in the last few days, which makes me really nervous.  I'm only 8w2d- I shouldn't be coming out 1st trimester symptoms yet.  But, I've been hungry and not as tired.  Even my acne is clearing up.  I'm so nervous for the scan on Monday.  B can't go because he has a meeting at work, but my mom is going to go with me. I ended up ordering a doppler.  It came the other day.  I haven't tried it yet, because I think it is too early and I want to wait at least until I see that testiclese/clitiva is still alive. In unpregnancy related freak-outs, something scared the crap out of me this morning.  I'm just relaxing on the couch, and I hear something banging around/scratching from somewhere in the house.  My house is strange, in that part of it ...